Be Thou My Vision
A beautiful song and a beautiful poem. This song says all that I am feeling right now.
Be Thou my vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.
Be Thou my Wisdom, Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee, Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.
Be Thou my battle-shield, sword for my fight,
Be Thou my dignity, Thou my delight.
Thou my soul's shelter, Thou my high tower.
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.
Riches I heed not, nor man's empty praise,
Thou mine inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of heaven, my Treasure Thou art.
High King of heaven, my victory won,
May I reach heaven's joys, O bright heav'ns Son!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my vision, O ruler of all.
Here's the thing. I know that really no one reads this blog, and I kind of like that. It is out there and I can write freely.
I have been rather frustrated with my roommates lately. I mean, can we go more than a half hour without some sort of drama? Of course, I will keep my thoughts to myself and just try to stay out of it, but honestly it is so annoying to be in the middle of. Why do girls thrive in a world of drama? Is this some necessity of a girl's life? I am such a guy girl. I hate drama. I cannot live in a world of drama and thus I am done living here. I mean, I love them to death, but maybe our relationships are better further apart. You can have your drama, just give me my peace and joy. I love being full of joy and appreciating the small things. I like it when relationships stay pure and full of goodness. Not that everything in a relationship has to be good, but why can't it be mostly good? Why can't you just have the kind of relationship that everyone knows that the other person has only the best intentions and if something goes wrong, the people just assume that it was an innocent mistake? Isn't that kind of what guys do? Girls never do this! Ah!
You know what else is slightly frustrating? Planning a wedding. Why does this have to be so stressful? Honestly, I don't care what the wedding looks like so long as I get to marry the love of my life. I know that our relationship will last, but I do not know exactly how I will stay sane until the wedding day. It is not that bad compared to many other weddings, I guess, but I hate always having my to-do list in the back of my head. Lately, I can't even sit down and do nothing without feeling bad that I am not doing anything. God is in control of the situation, this I know. And, honestly, this is just my rant, so things are not THAT terrible... You know how you just need to let things out in a constructive manner sometimes. I definitely think that this is a more constructive outlet than getting furstrated with all of the people around me.
If life is like a box of chocolates, why is it not sweeter? I will find the joy in the small things, and appreciate the goodness around me. I have Steve and he is just total and complete joy. He is such a support and comfort in anything that I am going through. Although he doesn't always understand, he tries. Goodness, I love that man. Okay, off to class. I am glad to see blue skies outside!
Idiots Controlling Signs
One would think that the city would insure correct grammar before they spent thousands of dollars producing and putting up signs all over town. Wow. There are at least five of these signs that I saw on the canal.
Holidays
So, major holidays in my family are generally a bit stressful. I am curious how I, along with so many other people, can forget the meaning of a holiday and freak out. I understand that I did get a bit out of whack today. I mean, I will completely admit that the first part of today I didn't have the true meaning of Easter in my mind... And yet, God always has a way of bringing us back to remembering the true meaning of the day. I was perfectly content being a bitter woman all day. I was frustrated at having to clean up the house even though I shouldn't have been. I was frustrated when my grandpa only asked me one question the entire night basically and then I wasn't able to answer it because we sang happy birthday . I was frustrated when we were stressed out before going to church. I was frustrated all day and antisocial. But then we went to my grandma's house. My grandma spent all day cooking dinner for us. She spent so much time making everything perfect. Then, afterward, she gave herself selflessly and everything that she had. She let us try on all of her jewelry. Gave both Chelsea and I two pieces of jewelry. Then, she gave us flowers, candy, rolls, and my sister lotion. Seriously, it was the most amazing thing... Someone giving what they have so selflessly. Then you think of Jesus. He gave his life for us. I am such a pain in the butt, but he still died for us. He loves us fully and completely. I can't believe it. Thank you Lord God. I can't even imagine.
Ice Blocking
Ice blocking for sure should be a sport. Whoever invented it seriously is a pure genius. However, as I learned last night, you really haven't been ice blocking if you didn't get dirty!!! I was covered from head to toe in grass stains and mud... I looked amazing! I wish I had a picture, but I don't. Anyways, I encourage everyone to go. It is much better than mattress dominoes!
